Live each day to the fullest.

• graduated high school.
• smoked a cigarette.
• kissed someone.(apart from family)
• gotten so drunk you passed out.
• ridden every ride at an amusement park.
• collected something really stupid.
• gone fishing.
• watched four movies in one night.
• gone long periods of time with out sleep.
• lied to someone.
• snorted cocaine.
• failed a class.
• dealt drugs.
• been in a car accident.
• been in a tornado.
• done hard drugs.
• watched someone die.
• been to a funeral.
• burned yourself.
• run a marathon.
• cried yourself to sleep.
• spent over $200 in one day. 
• flown on a plane.
• cheated on someone.
• been cheated on.
• written a 10 page letter.
• gone skiing.
• been sailing.
• cut yourself.
• had a best friend.
• lost someone you loved.
• shoplifted something.
• been to jail.
• dangerously close to being in jail.
• had detention.
• skipped school.
• got in trouble for something you didn’t do.
• stolen books from the library. 
• gone to a different country.
• dropped out of school.
• been in a mental hospital.
• watched the “harry potter” movies.
• had an online diary.
• fired a gun.
• gambled in a casino.
• had a yard sale.
• had a lemonade stand.
• actually made money at the lemonade stand.
• been in a school play.
• taken a lie detector test.
• swam with dolphins.
• gone to sea world.
• voted for someone on a reality tv show.
• written poetry.
• read more than 20 books a year
• gone to europe.
• loved someone you shouldn’t have.
• used a coloring book over age 12.
• had surgery.
• had stitches.
• taken a taxi.
• seen the washington monument.
• had more than 5 im’s/online conversations going at once.
• overdosed.
• had a drug or alcohol problem.
• been in a fist fight.
• suffered any form of abuse.
• had a hamster.
• pet a wild animal.
• used a credit card.
• gone surfing in california.
• done “spirit day” at school.
• dyed your hair.
• gotten a tattoo.
• had something pierced.
• gotten straight a’s.
• been on the honor roll.
• known someone with hiv or aids.
• taken pictures with a webcam.
• started a fire.
• gotten caught having/going to a party while parents were gone

you would have been perfect for me. and you know that. we have so much in common but i see you walk by with her. today is your nine month anniversary and i cant help but wish that was me holding your hand and feeling on top of the world. 

The words i hate the most. The words i have the most experience with. The words that one of my best friends said to me last night. It is harder than anyone knows for me to believe those words.

1. i miss you. a whole lot. and recently it has been on my mind. i wish that we could be friendsish again. i miss the way i texted you all the time. i miss the way that i would have someone to talk to when i feel sad. but at the same time everyone tells me im better off. i just dont know when it will click thats its the right decision.

2. you hurt me so much. i dont know what happened to you. you used to be my best friend and now you have changed completely and treat me like i dont even exist. im sorry that i was such a burden to you and that you wanted nothing from me. but im better off without you. thanks for teaching me that. 

3. you are one of the best friends i could ever ask for. i dont know what i would do without you. you are hilarious and you are crazy when you have problems and you obsess over them. im happy that we have gotten so much closer over the years and thank you for always being there for me no matter what. 

4. literally i would not be where i am today without you. you helped me through so much in my life with your love and compassion. i know that you had so many other things to be dealing with in your life and i know that you do everything you do out of love for the person so thank you so so much. i love you. 

5. um i think i like you. but i cant because its wrong and you are taken. 

6. i hope you are doing well today. i dont talk to you anymore nor have i in about 2 years but i hope you are doing better. 

7. i am so proud of you. the things you have overcome and where you are today. you are a beautiful and successful person and you should be so proud of yourself. i love you so much and you are one of my best friends always and forever. 

8. i dont really know where i am supposed to be going in my life but i am fully trusting that you have a plan for me and that everything will be okay even through the ups and downs in life. i love you. 

9. thank you for making me the person i am today. thank you for believing in me and putting up with me all those years and all those fights. 

10. i miss you. you were one of my role models. you were such a fighter but cancer always wins. i hope you are resting easy in heaven. i hope i get to see you one day. love you.

My idol is definitely my sister. She is the best role model in the world. She is so successful and knows how to live her life to make herself happy no matter what. I want to imitate her carefree sense of life and love for everyone. Love you!

My all time favorite movie would have to be avatar. Its just something about the environment of Pandora and the way that the people feel so free in this alternate world. i would really like to be there right now instead of here. I want to travel on birds through the sky, feeling like nothing matters except soaring through the skies. 

right so im the immature one. 

im glad to see that i have matured and you havent. 

thanks for reaffirming that i am no longer friends with you. 

i regret sending you those nice messages last night.